when windows open
It had been ages since, on my lunch time walk-about, I walked into the local book store. I entered with no specific intentions in mind other than to pass time being on my feet and in motion. That motion came to an abrupt stop after I passed through those open book store doors then executed a sharp left. My sense of sight was permeated with photos and phrases which portrayed a particular poignant picture for this point in my life.
I thought about this poignant picture I was facing, then my thoughts brought me back to more than a decade ago. Back then I was enjoying living an adventurous lifestyle, well what adventurous meant to me at that time. I became quite comfortable with what I was experiencing. I had confidence I could conquer. Even though I was enjoying what I was doing, where I was going, what I was seeing, something was missing! I came to realize comfortable equaled stalemate. It was like a window closed and I was not moving on.
I missed trying, learning and growing!
It was time to move beyond that comfort level!
Windows opened and I pushed boundaries!
At times I was scared and I was hurt!
I fell down but got back up again!
I call them badges of honour!
Back then surrounded by supportive friends, I began growing again. I reached new heights both physically and mentally. I realized I had capacity within to go above and beyond safely with that great support circle. I learned what true support is, I learned that I do have limits and it is OK to have them.
Since back then, I pushed more windows wide open. It seems the more that open, the more there are to yet open. Never have I been "quite comfortable" again. I have gone beyond where I ever thought I would go. I still fall, I still get scared and hurt, I still get back up again! I have to get back up again to get through those open windows.
Now a new window is on the verge of opening.
In a short period of time it will be fully wide open.
Right now it is open enough I can see a poignant picture on the other side.
It's time to begin charting a new course!